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11:56pm, Wednesday, December 30, 2009, another normal night. 4 minute and 1 day to go, 2010 comes… Today, quite well passes, went basketball early in the morning and then went ‘friend’s house’ whole afternoon, and then went drink and chit-chatting at a place we use to be at. Came back lately, started to online. Simple and nice…wait, about her, she was kinda “MIA”, missing in action these days, so, I just can hope she is still enjoying her life, hope she is happy…tired, so I make it as short as possible. 12:16am, good night…

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11:51pm, Tuesday, December 29, 2009, unknown night. One more day to go, 2010 is coming. Today’s lunch, went JJ ‘Papa John’ pizza, we each ordered a personal set, kind a like having pizza buffet, ate very full, quite worthy. Then, went for movie, ‘Sherlock Holmes’, was nice show, not perfect, but nice, to watch. Until evening, continue played basketball with my friend. Came back quite early because it started to rain… I was satisfied with today’s activities and event, full day with something happen, but, I felt like something is missing…her? If she was in this today’s activity, everything will be different, double the fun, right…? Nah…I don’t think so…maybe it’s just my imagination…I think too much, I think…12:08am, done…

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12:31am, the midnight of Tuesday, happened on Monday, December 28, 2009, dark sky above full with stars. This afternoon, was just like another normal day, just like always, until night, the event comes. Just had a gathering with my old tuition friends and with my English teachers at a steamboat buffet restaurant at Bandar Baru Klang. Having fun chit-chatting there, and satisfying food, ate a lot… During our chatting, I heard one of the pretty girl, as known as my friend, is available, honestly, I kinda like ‘her’, but, I think again…, she is the only one I like, with feelings, and I hardly forget her, don’t misunderstood, it’s just like, not love, I’m still keeping the truth myself, I try my best don’t let her know the truth… I don’t want to affect our relationship as bestfriends for now… 12:42am, I’m out of here…

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11:17pm, Sunday, December 27, 2009, windless cooling night. Afternoon, went ‘1 UTAMA’, search for my item again, my new year pants. Almost 10hours of searching, finally, I bought a short and a black jeans, like it quite much. So, dad says that we had already done shopping for new year shirt and pants, what’s left is a pair of new shoe, I’m really looking towards it… Suddenly, I was thinking, will I being able to get her 1 nice dress for New Year or maybe some special event…Hmm… I should start my saving now, even if I can’t buy her one, I still can save for the last one… 11:33pm, going to bath, just reached home not long ago…

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10:31pm, Saturday, December 26, 2009, cooling night. Morning, I was awaken by the sound yelled by my mother, I was pissing off a little cause I haven’t sleep enough. Walked downstairs and asked by mum to help grandma make biscuit, frustrated a little… After bathing, I felt refreshing so, I started to get enjoy doing it, what was I saying…weird… And the rest of the day, online, eat and watching television show. Damn! I felt I’m getting lazy and lazier… I wonder, how she passes those boring day, maybe…she is doing the same thing that I do? Who knows…maybe we have much common attitude? Stop it, she is…just…one of my best-friend that I felt different when I get close to her…I hope that’s I’m telling lies now… 10:50pm…ended…

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2:01am, its should be Saturday but, it happens at Friday, December 25, 2009 silent night. Wonder why I wrote it late, it’s because I just came back from a midnight show, title “storm rider” , what a ‘great’ show, I wonder I yawned for how many hundred times when I was watching it, it’s hard to explain…I’ve been ‘hypnotize’ by my buddies… Before planning for the show, we were in 2 of our friends’ church, joining their Christmas night ceremony at there, with few of my buddies…listened to songs, talks, and their pray or wish I think. Anyway, I enjoying every moment when the dinner session starts, LOL… As a conclusion, luckily today’s Christmas didn’t let me down, lucky to have much activity today and by the way, we were playing basketball too in the morning. So, I wonder, is she having fun and enjoying at there, I hope she’s happy enough… 2:18am, nights…

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11:40p, Thursday, December 24, 2009, night before Christmas. Well, today is Christmas Eve, during the night, many people will gather around, celebrating the countdown for the Christmas. This night, I guess…she won’t be lonely, celebrating either with her friends or family, hope she is happy and enjoy… As for me, nothing special and worst, no any outdoor activities with friends or family, no celebration, not even a simple countdown… Forget it… It’s almost 12, I’m ready to countdown for myself…but, I accidently missed it, because, I send too much Christmas wish to all my friends…never-minded, I just hope everyone can be happy always and their wish may comes true, while I, searching for my true happiness and my wish…Have a joyful and warm Christmas Eve, everyone and all my friends… 12:03am…watching the beautiful fireworks scattered the dark blue sky, outside the door, alone…

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11:59pm, Wednesday, December23, 2009, a night of going to rain soon. (Yawned)… another normal day, normal situation, and normal activities at home besides playing basketball with friends in the afternoon, as usual I being very nervous when I saw those big guy playing, sad…have to be brave and improve my skills as soon as possible. Another 24 hour to Christmas countdown, I hope she gets warm enough during the night of Christmas eve and having a good Christmas celebration, with friends maybe, as for me, maybe with friends or being alone, I still doesn’t know, or maybe family…many possible answers. 12:12am, rest well, good night…

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10:12pm, Tuesday, December 22, 2009, gentle rain. Woke up at 10am+, online, meet up with friends, played for awhile, get ready, prepare, and then off to AEON with them. Today’s movie, AVATAR, starts at 12:30. AVATAR, was a great show, talks about those guardian of forest and human who destroying it, if no mistake, I think the moral value is protect the forest that belongs to those living thing, they have a home like us too, and their home are the forest and jungle. I enjoy watching the movie because I like the nature much, and I wish that she love it too. As for the rest of the hours during that day, most of the time, online, that’s all…

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11:38pm, Monday, December 21, 2009, a night with slow flow winds. Morning, I was woke by my own hand-phone, received a call from my working manager, asked me and my friends who works at the same place to get there in the afternoon to discuss about something, after she ( the manager) told me something, I realize it was quite a serious case, so we must go. It’s a very long story during that afternoon, I don’t want to explain much, and it’s consider as a working top secret case, not a very top or big case, but…as a part-time worker, we can’t care too much, hope u know what I mean. Skip that whole busy afternoon, until night, me and 3 of my friend went for chatting at a place we usually been. And…that's all for today, don’t want to talk much more than that. By the way, I really miss her especially when she surprised me from very far away, don't understand why; I bet you won’t get what I mean…LOL, that’s all, 11:54pm, good bye…

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10:43pm, Sunday, December 20, 2009, another warm night. Just came back from Mid Valley, finally, bought one of my new pants, one more to go. Afternoon, was almost became another normal day until dad planned to go for shopping at Mid Valley. Walked few place, few shop, I found out that, the distance, between me and her, had became closer, but yet still far away. Suddenly, the songs ‘right here waiting for you’ flew across my mind, but, I was thinking, is my mind playing the right song? Or maybe it’s just a coincidence… Don’t feel like wanted talk much, walked for almost half day, exhausted and tired… 11 sharp, over…

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11:02pm, Saturday, December 19, 2009, normal night. Another day of boredom, forget it, normal thing to me. Until evening about 6pm+, went ‘Bukit Raja JJ’ to search for my Chinese New Year pants, I wonder, seriously, is it really near? Search for few hours, finally, I found out that there’re too less pants that as I imagined. So, until next day, search in a bigger place, at KL, maybe. Nothing special happened today except for shopping, just…I still can’t see her in the crowded place, and still, that remains a reality thing to happen without question, or maybe, not… 11:12pm, ended another page…

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11:56pm, Friday, December 18, 2009, night with wet air. Just came back from a bestfriends belated birthday celebration at steamboat buffet, near sunway. That night, was a wonderful night for me and also others, i think, ate full enough, laughed enough, chat enough, and, shared enough...it was totally an amazing night for me and my friend, i hope everyone enjoyed very much. I really hope me and my 'brother' can gather around like today chit-chatting, joking, and share the feelings together once a while or maybe once a long time, i won't mind, just that...i hope we won't forget each other no matter where we are and what we are... That's all for today, and this, will be one of our memories, saved clearly...Before i go, i was thinking, someday, i wish i can also bring her to join these happy and joyful moments...because, i wish to see her happy sweet smile on her face, and that's, is only a wish that maybe comes true or not...12:17am, done...

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9:50pm, Thursday, December 17, 2009, drizzle rain had just stopped. It’s already been 9 days since that day I saw that person. Wake up early, going to another location of basketball court, and this time, indoor. This was the first time I ever play indoor basketball, feels great but not many air or wind inside there, heat energy occupied the atmosphere. In the afternoon after I reached home, I went to another friend house again, online…I was thinking, why am I always go to my friend house and online? Reason, simple, because…number 1, my house didn’t have smooth connection, number 2, too bored staying at home, 3, scared my brother or sis want to play my pc and I had to let them, and many other crazy reason. Until night I almost forget to stop online even I came back home about 6:30pm…was totally tired again, cause I forget to rest my body and rest my mind from thinking the unsolved question…10:15pm,sleepy…

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10:21pm, Wednesday, December 16, 2009, wet and cold night, rain stopped awhile ago. I don’t want to say more about today, the normal day during this holiday, beside online, watch television and eat lunch plus dinner. No other special thing happens… So, I decide to discover the questions and answers again, can I think of her? Can I miss her? Can I love … Never-minds, I just hope she can just like me, not love me, and if she really love somebody, I just hope she treat me as a best-friend, but I won’t change easily, I will keep on admire her… 11:35pm, finished…

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11:59pm, Tuesday, December 15, 2009, heatless night, alone. In the wet weather early morning, I woke, went for basketball again, but this time, different location, fetch by my friends. Reached there, the floor was wet, didn’t rain, but soon, it will. I played for team2, and when we begin to play, it finally rain, light, but enough to slow down the player including me, the floor was slippery and I was being as careful as I can. After 2 round, the court became empty because the rain starting to be active. Went for breakfast, and then returned home. Afternoon was almost like yesterday, until I come out with a plan, swimming. Me and 3 of my friends went there about 4pm++, we hanging around beside the pool and started to swim at 5pm because the door only opens at 5. When I was in the pool, I dived deep and hear my heartbeat again, I confirmed 1 things, my heart beats faster when I think of her… After swam, went back home awhile and then went my friends house to online again, I was totally exhausted that time, but I still manage to finish this after I reached home, 12:28am, tired…

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7:17pm, Monday, December 14, 2009, raining evening, and the sun had almost completely dawn. Another at home, woke up about 8am in the morning, started to online, because I’ve promise my brother that I’ll fetch him to the court of training. Until afternoon about 1pm+ I’ve started to get tired, so, decided to have an afternoon nap in my room. About 5:30pm, I woke, watching discovery channel, I wonder, why discovery channel didn’t have anything that discovering the secrets or the way of searching love, weird, what am I talking about. 7:30pm, until here, I stopped, because I had nothing to say more about a normal day and about her, I trying my best don’t let her know that I still can’t forget about her in everyday. One more thing, maybe going to my friend’s house tonight for online… That all, bye for today.

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9:48pm, Sunday, December 13, 2009, another night. 12 more days to go before Christmas, today, I went to a place, with a nearest festival season decoration in it, and I, saw many things that I wanted to buy, for you. I was wonder, will she like the present I gave to her? Or maybe, it’s just a normal Christmas gift… I walked around, and realize, since she was so far apart and I hardly find a chance to be her one day Santa, I put my hands into my pockets and just walked by those gift stuff. I really hope that she won’t misunderstood me so quickly, it’s just, some kind of activity that some people do it during Christmas season. I wish that she would accept my small gift, not an expansive or elegant gift, it’s just…a heart-full tiny present for Christmas. 12 more days to a cold season, hopes she will be warm always, Merry Christmas… 10:14pm, ended.

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11:56pm, Saturday, December 12, 2009, cold-less temperature night. Just back from an Indian corner, as known as ‘Mamak’, drink tea and chit-chatting… Actually that night, I was very tired, but, since my buddies are on, I asked them out cause its kind a bored. Half day working as a part-time promoter, I was standing in a crowded street, seeing many faces, watching many things around…but I can’t see or watch her faces inside among the crowded people around there, I felt a bit of disappointment even though I knew the answer, she is far apart and that’s the reality. So, I was hoping, hoping to see her someday somewhere in someplace… Midnight, 1:05am, finished…

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9:53pm, Friday, December 11, 2009, windless night. Day 2…went for basketball early in the morning and thought that today will be a fine weather day, but as the time was ticking, the sun keeps shining, not warm but getting hotter and hotter as my energy burns faster and faster, formless… I don’t feel like wanted to talk much about today, and it’s because it’s almost similar to yesterday, it’s just another day… Question remains without answer. I had started to wash out the images of hers but, it’s not easy, I just scared that, when I saw her again, I’ll run out of words to say and started to think of her again… 10:10pm, ended…

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11:41pm, Thursday, December 10, 2009, warm night. Today was the first day of my college’s semester break, about 1 month holiday. I was hoping this holiday will be like a holiday, but the first day of the holiday had already became a boring day, never-mind it’s okay for me, because I had already used to it before that, actually, it’s a very common thing among us, not every day during the holiday will be like ‘the’ free holiday, get my point? Went my friend’s house and do an activity I hardly miss it every day, online. Reason, PC going to get an ‘operation’, and Wi-Fi modem, incomplete setting, laptop with Wi-Fi, useless, because I don’t know how to fix it. Back to main point, I’m very glad with myself today, because I…, didn’t think of the person all the time today and it doesn’t mean I didn’t think of her completely, it’s just, not all the time. My heart seems to being cut piece by piece as I forgetting her little by little. I was asking myself again and again, am I doing the right decision by forgetting her bit by bit or I just hiding myself most of the time…? And why is this happening? Why is the puzzle of my heart remains scattered until now? Zero answers for the confusing me… Ended another daily short story at 12:15am, good night, to myself…

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11:53am, Wednesday, December 11, 2009, sunny day. I was on the road to college, using my laptop with my friend beside me, as known as the driver. About 1 more hour to meet the person again, today will be the last day I can see you, I think, and the next time I can see you again, will be the next year, 2010. Today was a bright sunny day but with a very hot weather. I stopped and watch the time again, 1 more minutes to 12, and almost 1 hour sharp to meet the person. I was thinking, am I going to let you go or myself give up easily. This tricky question often floods my mind deeply. Until now, I still don’t want to know whether you admire me or not, one thing I’m clear about is that, I still can’t forget the back shadows of yours. I’m so sorry to say, please, forgive me from falling deep in love with you. Stopped this short paragraph at 1:38am midnight because I was only wrote half way when I reach college this afternoon.